I was blue. I woke up worried about “him”. It had been several days since I’d heard his voice. I didn’t know how he was doing. Was there enough food? What was his emotional state? Did he have a ride to wherever he would be going today? It weighed heavy on my heart in spite of all of the releasing I thought I had done. I felt best when I could busy my mind with other things, any thing. I just needed to stay busy. I wished my heartache could dissipate.
Mid-afternoon I gave up being busy and dragged the laptop onto my outstretched legs and dug into the many emails that I had flagged for later reading. Of particular interest was a channeled message that had been forwarded to me. As with most information that comes to me I absorb what I need or can believe and discard any other information. Some so-called “channeled information” seems preposterous. Some of it seems outrageous. I always let my gut guide my acceptance of truth.
The reading was about the power of Faith. It spoke of the mirror-like world we live in how we see in our outer world that which is going on in our inner world. In part, the reading this day went like this: “because your belief, your trust, creates the foundations for your life. If you do not have faith…the universe will mirror this back to you.” It referenced Hebrews 11:1 which says “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. ”
I had to put the laptop aside and ponder my morning pain. I woke up in a state of worry and sadness. I had awakened to not trusting that he would be cared for and worse, I had not trusted that he could care for himself. I had imparted my lack of faith on him and on God. Oh. My. As I ran through my findings I clearly saw that the universe was mirroring to me the chaos I had created in my mind. I could see that my perception was projecting and that it was a continuous reel of film that only I could change~ if I chose faith.
I looked at my VIP and I explained what I had discovered before asking from my heart “Do you suppose if I had more faith that all of this would correct itself?! Is it me holding this situation in a perpetual holding pattern?” As I waited and searched my partner’s face for answers my telephone rang.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Hey! How are you? Have you had a great day so far?” It was “him”, the one I worry so much about! Oh, it was him and he sounded so full of life and happiness. I could feel all of my stress melt away as our conversation went on and on. When the conversation ended I stood shaking my head in wild wonder as the answer sunk in. There was no need for my VIP to voice his opinion, God had briskly and with great gusto answered the question I had asked. Faith will always lead the way. Faith will guide the situation. Faith can be applied in all instances and will shift your reality. I could no longer deny that it was indeed me that was the problem, not “him”. “He” was just fine and I just needed a little faith.
This blog post was brought to you by the letters U and I. I am what I am because you are what you are. You and I are one.